I don't like this.

I'm so so so stressed today. I can't stop thinking about everything I have to do by the end of the month. I'm so fucked up over work, school, hockey, everything. The worst is by far my worries about money, I hate thinking that I'm not going to have enough money to get me through 2 weeks.

I need another job.

I tried talking to Chad a little bit to feel better. It hurt so much because it didn't make me feel better. I just felt like I was throwing all my problems at him, making him feel bad. He has problems of his own Addy, leave him out of this. Baka.

I don't want to go to hockey practice tonight, because it's stupid and we don't do anything worthwhile. I want to go to the gym and do at least fifty situps to punish myself for eating shitty food today. I just want to go to the gym and do something worth my time. I hate how I want things but never do anything to get it.

Fuck, I'm going to go drown my pain in my dirty little food pleasure...waffles and bananas.

Inside my shell I'll wait and bleed.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 3:05 PM