Ok people, if you're in a bad mood, or just don't feel like reading something happy, I wouldn't advise you to read any further. Sorry to say but this post will be a very happy and uplifting one, for the first time in forever.

I love this. Over the past week or so, everything has just been really good. Maybe not awesome and amazing, but still, really good. I can't think of anything that has really been "wrong", well, with the exception of still no possible boyfriends. But Tommy and I had a talk about that last night, and we agreed that that will be sure to come in time. Hopefully it'll be the guy I have my eye on now...

Anyway, I know you're just dying to know why my life has been steadily climbing uphill for the past little while. First off, I cannot stress how much I am loving grade 12. It is by far the best year of my life in high school. All my hatred for the last few years of high school has basically been erased by this year. I'll go over why:
-All my classes are things I like. No more stupid math or geography or chemistry or anything like that. I get to take philosophy and music and languages, nothing else, it fucking rules. And you can bet that I'm doing really well in these classes.
-Everyone is so much nicer this year. Even people who are "popular" aren't as lame and stuck up as they used to be. I actually had a nice talk with Cameron (probably the most popular guy in school) about music yesterday during our spare.
-So many opportunities get out of class. I've had about 4 ISPs already this year. I actually have one right now, which is why I'm at home writing this. We also have tons of grad things to do where we can get out of class. Yesterday I missed french for the university fair, awesome.
-I know that this is my last year of being in high school, and I'm loving the idea of finally being done with this shitty school system.

Which brings me to my next reason for being so happy. It sort of hit me yesterday when I was looking around the University fair. I realized that...holy shit....I'm so fucking close to being out on my own. I'm so so so close to starting to live the rest of my life. In less than a year, I will be living on my own, and taking care of myself for once. It made me so happy to think how soon I will be able to finally live my own life without having parents (especially dad, Jocey feels me), teachers, and just about everyone else breathing down my neck. Me and my mom came to an agreement that she would help me move out, if I at least waited until I was 18. Done and done. Ever since we talked about it, I cannot stop thinking about how much I'm going to love leaving home. Me and Jocelyn have even considererd moving in together, which would FUCKING RULE.

Ok, I'm almost done, bear with me.

So when I was at the University fair, I was talking to the guy from McMaster about the music program there. It sounded sooooo good. You get private lessons, access to recording studios, access to different instruments, access to tons of theory resources, I almost creamed myself at the thought of spending my time there. I asked him about the Mohawk transfer program too. he said that it was a great introductory course to take, with lots of hands on learning, and it would cut the time needed at McMaster almost in half. I was sold, right there. I was dreaming for the rest of the day about how I will actually get to have a career in music. Maybe not actually performing, but still, something with music. I love it. And since I'm planning on taking at least a year or 2 off school to work and just live life, I will have a lot of money and practice before going. I am so set.

And just a few other things that have added to my overall feeling of bliss:
-Attractive singer (Shawn) from my last post added me to MSN, and wants me to come play bass with them. Fuckin' eh.
-Hockey has started. I can already see where I have lost fat from the summer and gained muscle.
-Jocelyn is being the best friend ever.
-Cedric and me talked on MSN last night. it was only for about 10 minutes, but it's just a nice feeling to know that even though he's so far away, he still cares about me.
-I have been eating well lately. Breakfast, lunch AND dinner! Thank you 'Wake up and Chow Down'.
-MY GUNSLINGER GIRL VOL. 2 CAME IN!!! YEAAAHHHHH!!!

I wish everyone could feel the way I do right now.

The Stars Are All Falling Down My Way.
~Addy
- posted by Eddie @ 10:29 AM