About 5 months sgo...everything was horrible. I thought that there was never anything that could've made me happy again. By the most amazing chance ever in my life, something did come along, that changed my life for the better in so many ways. That something was a person in case you couldn't have guessed by now. This person made me laugh, showed me new things, and most importantly, made me feel like someone actually cared about me. With the many things that were going downhill in my life, such as my family falling apart, my relationship with my then boyfriend steadily getting worse, my best friend moving away, this one person made me feel like everything was going to be fine, made me feel like I still had a place in the world. And they did all this despite me having never even met them in person. I guess I was pretty amazed by this person, and you can bet I was even more amazed to find out that they actually felt something more for me than just a friendship. After finally having met them in person, I finally knew that I was falling for this person, and to make things almost fairy-tale like, they were falling for me too. We hung out a couple more times, and after about a week, we were oficially an item. They were leaving the next day for 2 weeks, and it was the hardest time of life almost. They returned, and I found myself even more in love with them then before they left. We spent the next month together, and we were almost inseperable, it was amazing. Soon summer was over, and school started again. We promised each other that we would try to make as much time for each other as possible, seeing as how we went to different schools, but we knew it would be hard. Despite our lack of time together, I knew that I was still madly in love them, and there was absoloutly nothing that could keep me from him. About 3 months into the relationship, something happened that scarred us, something that to this day I still don't know if it will ever fully repair itself...and sadly, things slowly spiralled down from there. Soon there was hardly any time for us to be together, and even full conversations became rare, eventually one night....this night...all of that was finally brought to attention. We both looked at our situation, and we asked ourselves the question that could possibly decide the fate of our relationship...is this all worth it? I've answered that question...now I'm waiting for him to...

Dave...I love you more than anything, please can we work this out....I know it's worth it....
- posted by Eddie @ 11:02 PM